Leslie's Inaugural Post

Welcome.  You can read about the purpose of this blog here.  The general idea, though, is two women are blogging about the journey of taking back our lives.  I'm one of them. We have different reasons why, and different ways of going about it, but we are doing it together, and that's what matters.  You can meet the co-host of this comeback here (insert link).  :)

Here is a little more background on me.  I am a pretty intense person who struggles with anxiety and a tendency to analyze endlessly without acting.  I have been diagnosed with idiopathic hypersomnia. In other words, I'm excessively sleepy, but there are no obvious reasons why, so they've given up trying. (I'm sleepy enough to almost be narcoleptic, but without enough textbook signs to earn the diagnosis.  No, I've never fallen asleep in the middle of executing a bowling ball).  I've been pregnant 4 times, and I have one child.  (I'll let you do the math.)

The struggle with these things has slowly permeated every area of my life over the last several years.  I struggle to find the energy to care properly for my family and my home.  I struggle to get everything done at work with the level of quality I desire.  I set high expectations for myself and regularly fail to meet them. I'm stuck in a cycle that leaves me exhausted, frustrated, and disappointed.  I rarely leave my house except for work, and even getting off the couch is a battle for me.  I want to be one of those people that gets out of bed and starts her day as soon as she wakes up.  Yet, here I sit, at 10:30 on a Saturday morning, still in my pajamas, watching my child dance to Just Dance Kids instead of dancing with her.  I find excuses not to meet up with the regular girls' nights that are available to me (the standard one being exhaustion.)  I have stopped reading, writing, going to the gym, playing softball, playing volleyball. . . all things I used to enjoy immensely

Over the last year, particularly, I've found myself in and out of some dark places.  But, over the last year, I've also discovered I have all the support I need to get out of these places.  This blog, for me, is about ending the efforts to do it alone and take advantage of the support available to me. 

So, let the journey begin.  If life were easy, we wouldn't have comebacks.